Maybe we can find new ways to fall apart

The past week seems to have been all about  finding ways and means to cheer myself up. Let's hope I don't have to do that so much this week. 

distracting myself from what doesn't exist

and with a tear in my eye

give me the sweetest goodbye 

that I ever did receive

think of this as the quiescent phase

embrace that thought 

don't go back and forth

the disappointment is not real because it doesn't exist 

 

Your Grace is Enough

Luke 18:22 & 27
Jesus said to a man who wanted to know what he must do to inherit eternal life. Jesus answered "You still lack one thing. Sell everything you have and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me." 


God calls us to give up the things we hold dear, to surrender everything. THEN follow Him. Have I surrendered all things in my life to Him? It seems so easy to say "yes i surrender" but the truth is, maybe I selectively choose the things that are easy to let go of. I still see my hands shut tight hanging on and trying to control my circumstances, my relationships. trying to use my human effort to get through tough times. It dawned upon me that only when I loosen my grip on the things that fill my hands, only then will I be able to grab hold of the bountiful grace that He has in store for me. 


God all that you have given me, I give back to you. You know best how to use me and my circumstances for your glory. All I need is you. 

Your grace is enough 

More than I need
And your word I will believe
I wait for you
Draw near again
And your spirit make me new
And i will fall at your feet
I will fall at your feet
And i will worship you here

Your presence in me
Jesus light the way
By the power of your word
I am restored
I am redeemed
By your spirit i am free
And i will fall at your feet
I will fall at your feet
And i will worship you here

(This is Our God- Hillsong) 

*glares*

note to self: sometimes it's not good to voice out your feelings.

Sudden Epic Realisation

I suddenly realised that the reason why i've not been doing so well in school lately is that.. I have no structure in how I study. I don't categorise information enough. I need to start doing this so i remember things better. Also, i tend to read something and just glance past quickly to speed read, which totally doesn't help getting the info to stay in my brain.



From now on, I am going to be focused and be awesome in my studies. No more distractions. This is a promise to myself.