Still thankful

I don't have much, not many friends, and i feel really really lonely sometimes. 
But today i looked through my photos in my computer.. and i'm thankful for the people and the things that make me smile: 

Write it out in black and white

I need to focus. and I need a solid plan. 

I think it will help to write it out in black and white so that i will at least try to follow it. 

1) No more afternoon naps- they make you more tired and are a waste of your precious afternoon time

2) Go straight to the Law Library/Main library after class- don't be lazy! 

3) No more downloading greys, new girl, modern family, big bang theory, how i met your mother, 2 broke girls, or other related series/movies until after 22 Nov 2012 

4) Spend no more than 10 mins on YouTube on any given day

5) Enable chrome nanny & facebook nanny as soon as the laptop is switched if not already enabled and don't disable until you're done studying for the day

6) Do not compare your progress to others' unnecessarily or it will only make you feel discouraged

7) Do not give yourself excuses like "6pm-9pm is my unproductive time so i'm just gonna slack/watch videos/stare at the computer/ play iPhone games/ let my precious study time go down the drain" hello! 7 weeks left. no time to waste.

8) If you start to get annoyed by housemates or friends/lack thereof, push your mind to think about happy things instead, and be grateful for what you already have. do NOT wallow in negativity

9) Last but not least-Pray before starting each study session. Ask the Holy Spirit to guide you, to grant you His wisdom, the ability to concentrate, and the ability to absorb as much as possible


I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. 

i don't want to infect you with my unhappiness

maybe it would be better to leave.

When Ordinary People Pray by Brian Houston

Effective prayer is 
1) Transparent 

2) Unselfish 
 James 5:16 Confess your trespasses to one another, and pray for one another, that you may be healed. 

3) Knows its authority 
In the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, Rise up and walk (Acts 3:6)

4) Fervent 

God answers the prayers of the righteous.
Who are the righteous? 
US. we are the righteousness of God in Christ. Christ has made us righteous. 

Never underestimate the power of prayer. 

koala

The way i look at it, i have 2 choices. 

#1 i can sit here and cry my eyes out 

or 

#2 i can get on with my day/my life/ my studies 

#1 is easy, #2 requires more willpower. i don't know how much strength i have

i know i should look to God for strength. but sometimes it's so difficult

Lately

Life has been pretty crap lately. 

And i wished that all this stress was related to my studying for the year end viva. 

then at least it would be worth something

can't wait for all this to be over. 

Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken. - Psalm 62:5-6

Maybe we can find new ways to fall apart

The past week seems to have been all about  finding ways and means to cheer myself up. Let's hope I don't have to do that so much this week. 

distracting myself from what doesn't exist

and with a tear in my eye

give me the sweetest goodbye 

that I ever did receive

think of this as the quiescent phase

embrace that thought 

don't go back and forth

the disappointment is not real because it doesn't exist 

 

Your Grace is Enough

Luke 18:22 & 27
Jesus said to a man who wanted to know what he must do to inherit eternal life. Jesus answered "You still lack one thing. Sell everything you have and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me." 


God calls us to give up the things we hold dear, to surrender everything. THEN follow Him. Have I surrendered all things in my life to Him? It seems so easy to say "yes i surrender" but the truth is, maybe I selectively choose the things that are easy to let go of. I still see my hands shut tight hanging on and trying to control my circumstances, my relationships. trying to use my human effort to get through tough times. It dawned upon me that only when I loosen my grip on the things that fill my hands, only then will I be able to grab hold of the bountiful grace that He has in store for me. 


God all that you have given me, I give back to you. You know best how to use me and my circumstances for your glory. All I need is you. 

Your grace is enough 

More than I need
And your word I will believe
I wait for you
Draw near again
And your spirit make me new
And i will fall at your feet
I will fall at your feet
And i will worship you here

Your presence in me
Jesus light the way
By the power of your word
I am restored
I am redeemed
By your spirit i am free
And i will fall at your feet
I will fall at your feet
And i will worship you here

(This is Our God- Hillsong) 

*glares*

note to self: sometimes it's not good to voice out your feelings.

Sudden Epic Realisation

I suddenly realised that the reason why i've not been doing so well in school lately is that.. I have no structure in how I study. I don't categorise information enough. I need to start doing this so i remember things better. Also, i tend to read something and just glance past quickly to speed read, which totally doesn't help getting the info to stay in my brain.



From now on, I am going to be focused and be awesome in my studies. No more distractions. This is a promise to myself.