My first post of 2010

As much as I want this first post to be a happy one. I guess i only write here when i have extremes of emotions. Today i spent my day studying in the library, stressing over the notes and having the stupid comm med report at the back of my mind. I went for a run in the evening, and somehow the increased cortisol levels from all the stress helped me to run almost effortlessly and even after 6 rounds round the lake i felt like i could still go on. this doesn't usually happen!

Mom called me today. wasn't really that pleasant to hear the things going on over there in Singapore. Wished i could be there, mom. wished i could help you make things better.

It's good friday, and my NCA didn't have service so i'm here stressing again over the comm med report. and eating stupid salty fried rice with chicken wing. happy village delivery calls it "singapore fried rice". how is this even remotely singaporean? :( I WANT TO GO HOME NOW... :'(

you won't be here to talk to me tonight. :( how am i gonna survive this long and treacherous night without you? i don't like this feeling. missing you and at the same time knowing i can't do anything about it.

yet again, i just want to dig a hole and hide inside forever.