pain is real

i never knew that i could feel so much pain. i thought that without you, there would be nothing left of my heart and i'd just die. or stop breathing. that would be so much better, wouldn't it? right now i feel like i'm living with a big gaping wound with a million pain receptors firing off impulses back to my brain. i'm in such tremendous pain i really can't quite describe it. i wished you'd just call, or text, or leave me a note, anything would do. as long as i know that you still give a damn about me. because i feel like i'm the crazy one, i feel like everything's out of control. nothing in the world can take my mind off you. i've tried so many things just to distract myself. but you linger at the back of my mind, and i can't stop thinking of you. please. please help me. you're the only one that can.